Monday, September 03, 2007
Meis' ar, got one question for you, are you still the mei that i know when i first met you? Feels that its only for that 1 or 2 month, yet i took so long to understand. Maybe i always put too much into relationships, tai zhi zhuo. It has been years i thought that you are my mei's, but since when any of these mei in any point of their life remember me this so called kor. I failed to underfstand that these mei and kor thingies are only 4 fun, fashion, for a moment of spice up in life, and when spice's over, no more. everything's over.Stupid am i to put it in the way you will always be my mei... Stupid am i to continue to think that they are still my godsis for the rest of my life when the spice is over... am i not more than a stranger to them actually. when caling me kor is already a tired thing to do, or only for some moment of spice after a long time not remembering me . IS this what you call your godbrother and godsis in today's world? Tts nothing more than an entertainer.Ganmei / Gange, should be sort of sworn siblings sworn brothers, why are ppl treating like some entertaining stuffs.. MAybe my mei's think that i am just one of their many kors that just do this for fun. OR should i say this trend is just for fun yet i dunt realise. What kor and mei, its just for fun, its not serious, just call for fun de.. isnt it? Are those mei and kors that u mention here and there really your kor and mei, think? will you really risk your life for them when they need help. or do you think your so called kor/mei will?No , most of you guys wunt, you just seek the fun, you called them mei you called them kor, so sweet, so warmth, for a moment of fun, but you seek not the responsibility, and this is what i despise in you ppl.
maybe my meis already forget me 90% of the time, but is there anyone that truly see this as a real relationship? i hope this is not the case for all my meis. OR maybe i am the crazy one, why would anyone think of such relationship as serious right? but... at least i does like to give al my meis a lifetime warranty not a one month garantee. hmm? too naive? perhaps..
It is not an act to make me look better, but i feel that this is generally the trend, and its accepted by alomost everybody. Feel that its quite wrong and fake...
No offense, but this is what i feel this moment, yupx.. perhaps i am wrong?
- it's me.
Saturday, December 09, 2006
Its a day worth celebrating, i think the cold war finally ended. But... fact is... Sad thing is i still wunt be seeing her frequently anymore i think.- it's me.
hmm..... shifted house, just reconnected internet, but alot of unexpected things and i am outdated. Looking at tammie's blog and then i found out that something happen.
i guess i might not be able to do much le, since i cant be there as frequently as i was. I still dunno what happen exactly actually, but i think its highly possible of a quarrel.
Dunno....... haix...... Wonder hows the clique ppl doing now. At least you all can see each other everyday bahx.. Do cherish it..
I am indeed sad over tammy's reaction in the last few days of school, but i had much expected it.
Its a feeling like just cant expect her to suddenly talk to me.
Sad not because i am leaving the school, because i cant see her as frequent as i did, and ending up leaving an impression like this. No more many days for me to salvage the situation, the last few days just seem to conclude up the things i expected it to be, although i am hoping that it doesnt.
The clique have so many days ahead to patch up, but the only definite thing is that i wunt be there anymore. Dunno what to say...
O, ya.... many ppl say if i like tammy.
Anyway, whether like or dunt like, is there a difference?
- it's me.
Thursday, November 23, 2006
okayx.. Dun feel like blogging nowadays.. hmm...but today exceptional.. last week went out with huiwen and anne. Combed vivocity and went to Orchard. OR is it orchard? mm somewhere with Far east plaza.. hmm? lalala what an orchard idiot.. hahahax....So.. i am going on with my life basically with only one thing bahx.. which is confidence. I believe it will lead me somewhere one day, far ahead, say around half a year later at least....
yarx, as some of you guys have heard that i am gg to withdraw from the school, its true. And the thing is i am going to poly, but rest assure i will try my best not to really end up 3 years there.
At least pace there is slower, could slow down my steps and see what's happening around me more clearly.At least, i can do the things in my way, and leave those bugging teachers behind the jc.
Hmm... its a shame that i didn promote, its a shame that teachers been scolding me for my pw and so on... but so what? the are just biased. For the same things others might have done , and so obvious you are the one being scolded. For the things that you have done, its not recongnised at all and just put into others credits.
And the thing that i felt from the ppl around me is that, everybody thinks first for themself. ITs like if i am fine, who cares about you. And i can feel that there are ppl who are just happy over my plight. But ..yarx, it just doesnt prove anything. I just seemed lousy, because of the nasty things that come out from those biased ppl, who just view one's academic results as his character. Why would these ppl have the thought that i and jiageng did nothing in pw just because the bastard leader complain that we didnt. Isnt it our academic attitude and results that leads to the direct conclusion. Why not you(bastard) let an expert do an evlauation on our pw work, and let him tell me that i did nothing? Even the teacher function in this way, what more can i say?
The leader called me and jiageng to get out of the group.
Let me tell you why i didn flared up right at the moment.
Because i know quarrel in a group doesnt progress the work in any way.
Just beacause the work's not done well, you call your member's to get out of the group?
Just this, you are no fit to be a leader. And the person who should get out of the group is none other but you. You should be thankful that i didn tell you off right away. At least i know what should do at a appropiate timing, you should be ashame of yourself to call yourself a leader of our group.
Ppl who are looking at his now, whether friends or not. If you are going to judge this matter, dun let my failure in academic let you misjudge my character. Dunt let my failure in academic makes you thinks that the other party is the right. Always complain to the baised teacher and make herself correct, how more capable is she? She is nothing but a bastard. Really, a bastard.
She makes me and jiageng almost withdraw from pw, repeatly calling us to get out of the group,
Jiageng call me to keep my cool, when i almost shouted at the teacher for his ignorance. As a teacher, apart being biased against the matter, not judging it into the exact situation, just making conclusion that we are wrong, we are also called to withdraw from pw if we are not interested. YEah.. how more biased can he be right? If you ever sees this, let me ask you how much do you know about what happen that leads you to conclusion that we are not interested and we did nothing. The reason why i didn scold you back for your foolishness is because you are my teacher. Not that i am afraid to lose face or what, you just tarnish my image for things that i didn do. Can you feel my anger at the time that i want to withdraw from pw? Do you?
You told me that i wunt survive in poly as well for sure, if i cant survive in jc. LEt me correct you that you are wrong. Not just simple as gg to poly, i have further plans, but now its not the time to announce. And that continuing the jc life is not doing anything good to me that could bring me back on the oringinal track. I know what i am doing.This sentence contains all i want to say to all my decisions now as for my future. I have all the confidence as usual , as before.
All that i need is support, so dunt question me anymore and try to help me in all ways you can if you are a friend of mine. I need at least half a year to bring me back to the oringinal track but at a further distance than once i before stopped.
- it's me.
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
Wenzi doggie. Lazy piggy. But such a cutie.- it's me.
YEEEWW! =)
Why did i place my face so close the cam.. geex! Screwed..but happy =)
- it's me.
hmm... muah and anne went to huiwen house today! took some pics... ok.. pls..dun look at me in this pic.. look screwed up..
okokiex.. anne and huiwen looks pretty.. but why do i look so funny.. GRRxx.. i shall make myself photogenic somehow. geex! =)
btw.. this is huiwen room
- it's me.
Saturday, August 12, 2006
i have been oversleeping no matter at home or on bus... geex.. yesterday i woke up on bus to found myself at jurong east. geex!it was not until then that i know how important you are to me.. i know that perhaps sooner or later i will be with another gal, but how would it be like when the gal besides me is not you... (you are with me.. always with me), sometimes i hope that i could forget you, but i cant bear to.. i am confused.. HAd you really forget me, or had i overrated my place in your heart... why why why !did it turn out to be like this.. dunt you say that you want to be with me foreva, and we shall be always childish............why why why....................! =(
NOw that you found another guy.... now that i think i am beginning to like other gals.... zhi qian de cheng nuo qu le na li... nan dao yi qie zao yi guo qu... dan.. ni he wo fen shou shi hu cai zuo tian... ni shen bian de ren bu shi wo, zhen de bu yong zing mei fen bei ma?...hai..... ni ar ni hao hao hao hao.. ni ye hao huai hao huai, hao hen ni you hao ai ni........ dan yi qie de yi qie du guo qu le... zhen xi wang shi jian dao liu, dao ni hai zai he wo sha jiao de na yi tian, dao wo zai bao zhe ni sha xiao de na yi ke....
Bu shi you zhe yi zhong shuo bu chu de gan jue.... wo dui ni de shi nian hua cheng qian qian wan wan de xiao chong, zai wo xing li zhuan lai zhuan qu... xing gan dao mi mi ma ma... ying cang zhe xu xu duo duo de yi qie
=( =( =( =( haix... TWK
- it's me.
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
Hey ppl! My blog is up le.. Special thanks to kaiqing. Thats why i say : Kaiqing is a good gal... lol... hahax.. lalalaTammie want to use her new skills against me on friday.. which means tmr is a peaceful day... hmmm... wuahahahaha
there comes Da tOu : Yeah! The blog is up
..................Man toU: =)
- it's me.